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| The calm before the stormMy partial exams start tomorrow and today i was kinda relaxed since i studied all night yesterday. I just gotta re - read some theorems and formulas so i can get them very well.
While i was studying i asked myself "Why do i do all this for?"
For myself? No... i hate myself so much
For my parents? I couldn't care less
To feel achieved? Yea, right, lol
I couldn't find an answer....
So why do i do things like this?... for you of course..
Sometimes people lose themselves into their harsh feeligs and let their worst side come to the light...
... but that's another story
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| Friday 13th, a horrible day for most of the people, but not for me.
This kind of days make me remember that, back in time, someone appeared, in the darkest hour, the darkest day.
It's good at least not to lose Hope =/
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| Yet more lies...Ever happened that you think love someone all of the sudden, but then you noticed that you don't really love that person and it was just something you wanted to forget someone else?
It happened to me .... actually twice up to now.
Why?
I don't know... i think the pain i'm carrying is starting to crush my heart little by little, and just try to forget her...
... but somehow i end up in a dead end, between her and the other girl (Which i think i love) and i confuse myself that much that my head starts to hurt.
So much time has passed, and up to now i haven't be able to forget you...
Why? ... I don't know, i just start to think on you again everytime i thought i forgot you
Our love started by ... accident? ... fate? Who knows...
I decided to believe it was fate ...
... What about you?
"Our meeting might have been an accident, but this .... this fated to happen"
- Raimond de thalos (The main char of my book xD)
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| It's been a year already...Whoa ... this was a year loaded with crap ...
Meh ... in this times of the year i remember all the things that happened back in 2004 ... all that sadness, those tears... those shouts (... Welll they were just Caps ... but it's considered shouting ¬¬)
I wonder ... why in the world did i fall in his lies?
I mean ... i knew something like this was gonna happen to us by our own fault ... but that he get involved.. why?
What did he wanted?
What benefit did he got?
WHY?!
I might never know ...
.... What do i want for Christmas this year?...
Same like last year... Her forgiveness
Merry Xmas everyone
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| Meh... thoughts of mineWhat do i have to do to get your forgiveness?
I might never know.....
I'm so hypocritical.... lol .... i call myself agnostic, but to be honest i just do the opposite in convenient situations.. i do the right so i have a "fake hope" to get your forgiveness.. i dont know lol..... i'm so desperate... i don't know what to do, what to think... nothing at all!
I just wish all that stuff never happened ... so we'd still be happy.... and together
I wish ..... it's a word i over use... i'm a dreamer lol let me be >_>
I'm not perfect... but i'm working on that right now... i might be a bastard for some people, but i want to be perfect for you, not for anyone else but you...
.. Well i suppose that's a matter of point of view... or something >_>
So anyway making a book is difficult lol...
Missing you more than ever......
Thinking about you more than ever...
I won't say never, i won't say forever ...... I'll just say i'll never forget you and i will love you forever...
.... WTF? .... ok dunno where that came from.. but it's a nice phrase :(
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